Beware the Rose’s thorns

 Her Last Letter to Lord Stone

In this world of pain lies betrayal, you were the only person I ever fully trusted with myself. The only person who learned the truth about me. Sometimes I wonder if that’s why you loathe me so. Because of a weakness I shall never have the chance to correct. Because I had already disappointed you before you had ever even laid eyes on me, even though I redeemed myself from the image of the life you once thought I’d lead… Even though you were straight fingered and caught in your own pots of honey back then. While I, while I drowned in endless rain.

Sinister thoughts overcome my mind sometimes. Maybe that’s why I hate white. Or maybe that’s why I prefer the color of skin when it is devoid of any color except undertones of blue and white. But then I remember other paler faces, and I know that that’s not true. (Is this when I’m supposed to feel relieved?)

Remember when we were flung out so far in that distant painted phony looking sky? When we laughed so hard that I began to cry, like I always do when I can’t stand how happy I am, and you wiped away every last tear even as we fell freely to the ground that was so so so far beneath us. Whispering over and over, Don’t cry, sweetheart, I’ve caught you.

Except I took too long to fall, and the ground was actually an ocean, and the ocean swallowed you whole, and made you see me from a whole new point of view, and you could tell how broken and damaged and worthless I truly was. And I could not find you. Can not find you. Because you do not want me to, and no one can reach you while you’re gone.

And I’ve followed you into this ocean, beloved. This ocean of ash and dust. You cannot turn your back on me now. Not after all this time. Not after everything we’ve been through together. Not after everything I have been through in your name!

But now I see just how this test was designed for me to fail. How the past year was designed to lead to no other outcome but this. It was clever of you. An almost automatic response, I would assume. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t see it happening. But I thought I had more time. I thought I had at least as long as some real betrayal.

If I had known that this is what it would turn into. If I had only known that the easier path would be all that attracted you, that you would rather run from something as simple as pain than stand your ground and be the man you swore you were, if I had known that you would actually choose mediocrity over meaning, as long as it meant the stabilization of your dominance and authority…

My father was right about you.

And this is the price of my disobedience.

Quotes on Tyranny //or// Why I don’t approve of “NaMo 4 PM”

Fascism should more appropriately be called corporatism because it is a merger of state and corporate power.

— Giovanni Gentile, entry in the Encyclopedia Italiana.

The people have always some champion whom they set over them and nurse into greatness…. This and no other is the root from which a tyrant springs; when he first appears he is a protector.

– PLATO, The Republic

“In every age it has been the tyrant, the oppressor and the exploiter who has wrapped himself in the cloak of patriotism, or religion, or both to deceive and overawe the People.

– (Canton, OH, Anti-War Speech, June 16, 1918)” ― Eugene V. Debs, Voices of a People’s History of the United States

Tyranny is always better organized than freedom.

-Charles Pe¢ guy

“When one with honeyed words but evil mind Persuades the mob, great woes befall the state.” 

― Euripides, Orestes

Of all tyrannies a tyranny sincerely exercised for the good of its victims may be the most oppressive.

— C. S. Lewis

“It is more dangerous that even a guilty person should be punished without the forms of law than that he should escape.” 

― Thomas Jefferson

Good intentions will always be pleaded for any assumption of power. The Constitution was made to guard the people against the dangers of good intentions. There are men in all ages who mean to govern well, but they mean to govern. They promise to be good masters, but they mean to be masters.

-Daniel Webster

Pls don't vote for this man. It would be criminal to do so.

Pls don’t vote for this man. It would be criminal to do so.

If I was Voting Tomorrow

Well, I still have some time to make up my mind. But, I think this time, in Delhi at least, the AAP has conducted itself with surprising efficiency and no-nonsense. So, if I would be voting tomorrow, I think the Aam Aadmi Party would get my vote based on these three reasons alone:1. Only party that has not once spoken about castes or reservations.

2. Instead of the general practice of releasing 1 manifesto for the entire state and having all candidates carry a copy, the AAP has 27 candidates in 27 constituencies, and 27 different manifestos, all identifying the strengths, weaknesses and requirements of each constituency.
3. Minimal wastage of money on stupid things. (I mean, they are the last guys I would expect to be building and justifying the building of statues)
Also, the biggest criticism against them is actually the part I find most endearing: That none of their representatives are actually the “Aam Aadmi”.

Yes. They are not. Instead, from every locality, they have chosen someone who has made it big in a respectable field, someone with adequate income to not be dependent on money earned from office (State), yet someone who is, if not out and out concerned, at least aware of the problems of local people from all walks of life. And, most importantly, every single one of their candidates is highly educated. Like, uber important that is, I believe.

In other words, they have tried choosing from among the best. And isn’t that what democracy and this whole election process is supposed to be about?

If nothing else, I believe the AAP shows a coming of age of Indian democracy. Finally. And I think that alone makes them worthwhile of the chance. Unlike mass murderers and their close-minded sycophants, or dynasty loyalists..

Closing Arguments: #NoMo Please!

S1: The real reason Anti-Modi people don’t like him is because Modi epitomises what the other Idea of India could look like..

S2: S1, you have a large fighting capacity. No wonder you’re lawyer. I can tell you this already. You will be a good lawyer. Well, you never stop fighting. And BTW, I don’t support BJP, I support Modi. I support leaders, not parties.

S1: Actually, S2, I don’t. Have a large fighting capacity, i.e. I’m like this uncaring, apathetic, really extremely chilled out person. But, there’s only one thing that makes me angry, like the Hulk kinda angry, and that is the Cruelty of Cowardice.

When a bunch of humans tie up kittens and throw them in water to drown, or set fire to a dog’s tail, or stalk and rape a toddler, that’s nothing but the Cruel nature of Cowardly humans. This is also why I despise mobs. Because they get together and fuck over individuals who otherwise might have been able to kick their asses. The two things that enrage me the most, therefore, are gang-rapists, and rioting fanatics..

Sigh. What this means is, I cannot just stop when I know people have died for something really senseless and there’s even an iota of a chance that they will, again.

Like I said somewhere in the middle of all this. Do I really believe Modi cares so deeply about eliminating the Muslim threat as he projects himself to be? I don’t know. But, when voting for someone, especially when it comes to politics, I do sincerely believe that it is necessary to look at the party behind the man. After all, this is not some Indian idol/American idol/some other reality TV popularity contest. This voting will affect real people’s lives. And, I just find it very hard to accept that there are educated people who treat this exactly like some “max smses for ur favorite bollywood hero” kinda contest.

It is not. Parties matter. Ideologies matter. Followers matter. And the lengths they are willing to go to matter too.

The ends do NOT justify the means. And, all Indians are my brothers and sisters, S. Especially the dead ones. Because they seem to be forgotten too easily in our country.

But, thank you for your faith. With every passing day in this country, I’m not even certain I want to be a lawyer in the first place. I don’t really enjoy this level of arguing and debating. But, those people suffered. And they died. And if that happened to me, I’d want someone to fight for me too.. That’s all.

Perhaps you should re-look at your civics/social studies text books? Or read some wikipedia links on how politics work and the actual role of a PM and his relationship with the ruling party? Or, perhaps it is foolish of me to expect that from everyone.. maybe it *is* just a popularity contest, and cheap PR and raving fanatics shall win it. But that makes me horribly sad. And I feel like we’ve betrayed not just the murdered, but also our forefathers who fought for, and achieved, independence. But, like I said.. Maybe that’s just my foolishness.

The Last of the Anti-Orange Rant [Or why you will never convert me, Modi-ites!]

The problem is this, S. The reasons why we don’t support Modi have been listed out a hundred times above. As others have mentioned, your scary blind devotion to the man is disappointing and frightening.  What we will get into is this: A lot of Muslims were horribly tortured, and died, under his reign. When you […]

Pro-Modi v Anti-Modi: Facebook Debate Excerpts

July 2013 1. The development claimed by Modi in Gujarat is a bunch of lies, as independent reports by Human Rights organizations, both international and Non-governmental have already proved. 2. Modi rides on the fanaticism of his Hindutva fan-boys and fan-girls. No one here is claiming that he wakes up and does the surya namaskar […]

The Indian Ban on Porn: Playing the Devil’s Advocate

Note: The govt./executive is the Devil for the purposes of this post.

Guys, we belong to a culture where rape is alright because, for most men in this country, the consent of a woman is an alien idea. Even marriage is like, “beta, be an ass, if you please. We’ll find you a girl to fuck. Come let us go their house and drink the tea she has made. That way you can check out how “sweet” her cooking is, as well as her body.” 
So, today, these men waiting for mommy and daddy to find them a fuck-girl aka wife, cannot comprehend the sexual autonomy women seem to be painstakingly working towards. 
Why?
> Because they know that, with the kind of jackasses they have become, no girl in their right mind would want to sleep with them. And this is the pathetic fear that makes them desperate to rape. They see women on the street, and if she’s with a guy, the automatic insecure, deprived notion that pops into their head is, “If she can sleep with him, why not me?”

Why is this relevant to this discussion? 
> I have a blog. Said blog has this cool feature relating to stats, and this includes a list of the search terms that people have used to reach my blog. Because I write about all these things, there’s a lot of “rape” and “sexual assault” tags. The kind of stuff I read on that list, i.e. the kind of stuff people are searching for, sometimes just makes me want to be sick.
>>>
Don’t get me wrong. I am totally pro-porn. But I’m not pro getting off on the pain of real victims.

What does this have to do with anything?
>> I’m not sure if, as a nation, we can differentiate between reality and fiction. And, in countries that don’t have such a problem, having a fantasy about raping your neighbor after seeing a porn clip about it stays just that: a fantasy. But, in incredible India, it’s just about waiting until said neighbor has a blackout, just like in the porn video.

What am I trying to say?
> As a nation, we don’t deserve porn. But, then again, we probably don’t even deserve to govern ourselves. Which we have time and again proved, historically, and at every turning point, instead of moving towards a society that respects its members, we have chosen to go the other way. Instead of demanding our rights, we have simply watched them go floating by to their ICU rooms, partially because there were too many of us dying for food, and partially because the handful of educated Indians wanted to do nothing but get out.

Conclusion
The Indian government is supremely ineffective. Nevertheless, as Nietzsche would agree, let them fuck up. Let them fuck up, and let us fight them, and then let them do worse things, terrible things. And let us keep fighting back.
Why?
>Because that is the only way society improves, and our’s is in desperate need of improvement. And this dialogue must be made part of the battle (i.e. on the link between porn and rape, because only such a discussion in the open media will get the point out and across that these guys are usually actors, and there’s a LOT of fucking consent involved.)

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Bottomline: The freedom of our people is of supreme importance, but nothing is more important than protecting our children. And we are failing. We have failed. Let them ban what they like. We’ll find our own ways. And, maybe, maybe the guy stalking some minor girl because she’s pretty (-_-) will next time be forced to pay attention to something else when he goes online, when the search results of “rape stories” and what not show not imitable ideas of sexual violence, but simply an account of how every rapist was beaten up by his society, and the jail term he has served.

PoA: Obviously let it be known that this is wrong, and it shouldn’t be done. But, keeping in mind that the class that has just stopped struggling to survive does not have the cultural license in this nation to form meaningful relationships (or any relationships, for that matter) with the opposite gender, and has literally turned to porn, and subsequently rape, as entertainment.

Because that’s the one thing Indian society has in common with violent, exploitative pornographic content: A serious lack of consequence.

Why I don’t prefer Modi

In light of the protests at Turkey, and the disturbing comments made by the Turkish PM, Erdogan, here, I would like to once again warn my dear fellow citizens as to the bleak, oppressive and fascist future that awaits us were we to make the mistake of allowing Modi to become the Indian PM.

Now, I’ve had this conversation with a lot of people, over a lot of forums. But, I think I’d like to briefly present my reasons once again:


1. Have you paid attention to any of Mod’s speeches? He never says we will do this, or we will achieve this; it is all “I will”, “Under me”, “I can”. He is clearly not too big on democracy. The words reflect an ego that definitely parallels Erdogan’s. And guess what else they have in common? Boasts of awesome economics-shaping abilities!

2. Which brings us to how Modi treats dissent. When he came to a college to give a speech about the economic future of India, he brought with him enough police protection to fight off a hundred terrorists. Which police force was then employed to harass and threaten the handful of college kids standing around with posters about the Gujarat riots.

3. And when Modi’s own enthusiastic saffron brigade showed up, the same police stood by as those guys beat up, groped and threatened the students, telling the women to watch it or they would face the same consequences as the Muslim women in Gujarat. Point being: Even if Modi is harmless (which I really, really do not believe) and his Hindutva merely an act (which really does not concern me), too many of his followers are juvenile fanatics who will take his assent to PM-ship as a sign that India is ready to forgive you if the people you fuck up, rape and kill are only minorities.

4. Modi is not very keen on the development or patronage of literary and fine arts, and his government has been known to give a hard time to all sorts of authors, revoking licenses, getting galleries shut down, etc.

5. Not to mention the strict intolerance towards unfavorable news reports in the local papers.

6. You all, who accuse the Congress of being weak and ineffective, saw the way protests were dealt with in Delhi last December. Do you really believe the Modi govt. will be any less brutal when it comes to dealing with dissent?? Especially if involving minority rights..

7. His repeated speeches at Women’s colleges/to women reek of primitive patriarchal ideas such as how women should use their natural talent at food cooking, and set up restaurants etc., so that India can develop. 
Arre, fuck his development. What am I gonna do with a thousand more malls if the streets are full of crime and intolerance? No, thank you.

8. Gujarat. 2002. [You can be a regular guy belonging to a community and wish vengeance for wrongs against “your” people. You can’t claim to represent an entire state and still make that wish. And, if you do, then you aren’t fit to rule. I don’t want such a man representing me, or my country. I’d rather be poor and cling on the little bit of pride and freedom I have left as an Indian, than have to always be chauffeured around in A/C cars to places.]

9. Lastly, but almost as important as the previous point, his claims regarding Gujarat’s economic success are mostly exaggerations and lies, as various reports have already conclusively proven. Yet, of course, people see what they want to see.

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Note: The reports I have referred to are not media reports, but NGO, NHRC, etc. reports. Also, there is the fact that it isn’t about his involvement alone in the Gujarat riots, but the fact that it happened while his party was in power, and they did very little, if anything, to stop it. And the fact that it doesn’t matter whether he was leading the orange brigade or hiding under his bed. The point is it happened. And he is responsible in more ways than just legally.

Anyway, I fervently hope that this country doesn’t have to see those days. But, with India’s growing inequality, high unemployment rates, and eager friendship with MNCs, I think it’s highly optimistic to assume that, under Modi, we won’t be heading down exactly the same path as our Turkish brethren.

Much faster, too.

A Sordid Affair: Capitalism and Socialism

I have a theory on why the World is going to hell. And, it somehow relates to why capitalism wasn’t the worst idea to begin with.

At the last point of time when socialism had any shot at affecting capitalism, i.e. at the time of the Cold War, people were just beginning to appreciate their individual rights. To even suggest to such a population, standing on the brink of what looked like cities of gold, that they must necessarily share their wealth with anyone, was nothing short of blasphemous. More importantly, it was unfair. Most importantly, it seemed regressive.

“Let the people choose” was the cry of the day.

Fair enough. Had the World not seen enough of foolish kings and cruel dictators? Had we not had enough despotism to not want any more of that in the State? Of the People, By the People, For the People, cried the People themselves. Yes, the World had seen enough of force and violence and oppression. It was choice we craved, and Capitalism was the only way visible to get at it.

And, what have we chosen?

In my humble opinion, I believe humanity has underestimated its ability to evolve/adapt to situations. People, as they existed in their natural state, may benefit from a survival-of-the-fittest kind of system that is capitalism. But, as generations are born and die within this system, the more they internalize these values, these codes of behavior, this sense of what is alright, and what is not, the more our basic values and core principles shift.

What values does capitalism promote? What do we have in place of the things that even cruel kingdoms could boast of? What is it that we value if not valor and honor and intelligence and compassion and understanding and creativity and communication? What is it that we allow the system to teach our children? What does this system reward, appreciate, encourage?

Competition?

Money?

Consumption?

Greed?

No, maybe what we really need is a capitalist government with socialist people. And, I think somewhere the Indian constitution grasped this need. [Or did whichever constitution they “borrowed” the concept of Directive Principles from. Irish, I think?] The Directive Principles of State Policy, contained in part IV of the constitution of India, are not enforceable by any court, but the principles laid down therein are considered fundamental in the governance of the country, making it the duty of the state to use these as guiding principles to establish and maintain a just society.

But, as a nation what do we promote?

As a people, who do we idolize?

And, who shall our children look up to?

Atrocities against Humanity: Syria – Leave the Kids Alone!

“Images of the killings in and around Baniyas have transfixed Syrians. In one video that residents say shows victims in Ras al-Nabeh, the bodies of at least seven children and several adults lie tangled and bloody on a rain-soaked street. A baby girl, naked from the waist down, stares skyward, tiny hands balled into fists. Her round face is unblemished, but her belly is darkened and her legs and feet are charred into black cinders.”

This is not a scene from the World Wars, or Iraq or Vietnam. This is Syria, today.

Sometimes I think to be a speck of dust would be more noble an existence than being a part of this septic cesspool of filth that calls itself humanity.

And, for all those ready to jump in and point out that a lot worse happens all over the World, and has been happening for centuries, save your breath. That makes nothing better.

It’s, like, at least once a day, I am ashamed of being human. And, don’t ask me to concentrate on all the good things few human beings are doing to help other living beings on this planet (both human and not so) – we’re only fixing what *we* broke. It’s the least we ought to do, considering the most inhuman acts today are carried out by humans.

I don’t even know why this bothers me. But, it does. Perhaps because it’s happening right now. It’s happening as I sit in class, as I play DotA, as I read Game of Thrones, as I sleep and – the children. Why would you murder the children?

It’s all the same everywhere. Are people really inherently evil? I get angry too. If I knew I could get away with it, I’m sure there would be at least a couple of people who would end up dead (okay, 5) But what kind of creature tortures infants, man?

RIP people I never knew, and never will.. May you find better worlds.

TL;DR – Humans suck. Here’s some more proof.