It Could Happen to Anyone

So, I logged in on Steam today, and was chatting with one of my friends, when I noticed that the font was all weird, large and bluey. I brought it up, but he claimed that everything appeared as always on his side. So, I scrolled down my friends list, looking for an observant boy, found one, and asked him whether it was just me. He confirmed the change in size, but could not help me with the blueness.

Then I realized both these boys were boys I had once dated. And, not just casual-over-the-holiday dating. I’m talking life’s two longest relationships.

And then they started playing DotA.


TIL that the world is small enough, and Life weird enough, without all the Gaming.. but not nearly half as much fun.

…oh! And that apparently I have a type. Which reminds me of an interesting conversation I had, coincidentally, with one of the abovementioned. The gist of it being that if I can figure out what Tony Stark (Iron Man), Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean) and John Constantine (HellBlazer) have in common, I can figure out what my idea of an ideal man is!

Favorite Movie

1. Sarcasm

Since all three of them would definitely score a 10/10 on sarcasm, I think sarcasm must be on this list. :\ Though, to play Devil’s Advocate, it could just be the fact that witty people tend to rely more on sarcasm, and it isn’t the sarcasm I find attractive as much as it is the wit. It could be!

2. Arrogance

Jack’s constant taunting, Constantine’s attitude towards everything from hell to God,  and every fibre of Tony’s being all scream of a level of self confidence that would be aggravating on someone not half as attractive. On these three, of course, it is only hot as hell. sigh Anyway, this does not surprise me at all, considering I’ve known for a while that Arrogance is the path to my downfall, in more ways than one. The Anime boys taught me that. It’s too bad that people today don’t get the difference between being obnoxious and being arrogant. You gotta have something to back all that talk, gentlemen.

3. Courage

This is actually important, because all of them have the same kind of self deprecating outlook on their own courageousness. Almost as if they’re convinced that they’ll never be brave enough. Call me twisted, but I find that adorable. ❤

4. Reluctant Heroism/Sacrifice

This one is the curve-ball on this list. But, I just realized that this is the largest part of what they all have in common. ~~~SPOILERS~~~ Jack’s decision to let Will Turner become Immortal after he was fatally stabbed, Constantine’s willingness to sacrifice his life and spend eternity in hell to save Mankind from Lucifer’s son, Tony’s act of transporting a powerful bomb into outer-space at the risk of almost-certain death.


Oh, fack! I have a really messed up type!


Some Examples

+ Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl


+ Genjo Sanzo, Saiyuki

My First and Truest Love

+ Spike Spiegel, Cowboy Bebop


+ Ban Mido, Get Backers


+ Dylan, Modern Family

Good guy Dylan

+ Dimitriv, Anastasia


+ Amon, Witch Hunter Robin

Brooding Amon

Just another day in Skyrim

A pretty little pond.

A pretty little pond.

Killed another Dragon today. After so very long. A Frost one. Thought it would brighten things up, but no such luck.. Came across this really beautiful pond though; called Mara’s eye. Or something. It was fuckin’ pretty while it snowed, and even more so when it stopped. Wait, lemme just find a pic.

It’s amazing what kind of wonderful places you can fall into while running for your life. ♥ Must remember that.. [Seems profound]

Though, sometimes I wish I could just fast-travel into the future. An uncharted water-body (half-snowy, but like spring), would undoubtedly be refreshing… but I am just so ready to be done with this entire quest.

*rubbing her eyes tiredly* I guess this is what Ezio knew to be the Bleeding Effect. Desmond. Shloka. Whatever.

And, I didn’t even have the time to Prophesize Death today! 😦
Damn it! These are *my* holidays! Mine! If I want to prophesize Death, then in the name of all the Ancients, that’s what my soul’s green fragmented shards and I shall do, Yahweh Damn it!

No, too tired. 😦

[I really want to smoke with the Lord of Hell, and the one who first realized that God’s absence was complete. I have some serious questions. And, yes, I know what killed the last Cat.

(o) Evil, be thou his good?
(o) “Is it better to out-monster the monster or to be quietly devoured?”

The Cost of Living is High Enough to permit it all; Death.
It’s all about Free Will.

Which reminds me, Does anyone have some spare shots of happiness/oblivion? Hell is out, and Heaven’s all preachy.]

P.S. This is why I (should) avoid sobriety. :\

Nothing is True, Everything is Permitted

Not all revolutions involve assassinations and civil wars. Though, I am yet to learn whether all revolutions require the same.. It’s easy to feel like that sometimes; much harder to take a stance and fight for what you know is right, with only your words and your convictions to make a point, not daggers and poison.

Words have always held power, and they always will. Their impact might be diluted by way of our insane levels of connectivity and the need to share and discuss the most trivial issues on public fora, but the same also facilitates a network with the kind of reach that is incomprehensible to even those from times that cannot yet be considered past.

We, the youth of today; individuals who have grown in the midst of a chaotic world where everything is accessible, less and less is permitted, and everyone has an opinion that they scream directly into your ears or shove down your throats, carry a different burden of responsibility. It is an era of change. And change we must, or we shall die.

Apathy, violence, hate, jealousy, greed; none of these is new. But the ability of man to destroy is much greater now than ever before in the past, and that is why things must change.

Earth has borne the burden of mankind for centuries without a complaint, and now that the planet is  falling apart, our careless ways must change.

Corruption and incompetence have long been a part of human history, but we are no longer a new species struggling to survive in a new world. We have been here long enough to know better, and hence we must change.

But, first we must learn what to do. And this cannot be explained or taught to anyone. We arrive on this planet just as clueless as the next newborn infant, and every single person must die. The time in between is yours and yours alone. No one who tells you what to do or how to behave shall ever have to live with the consequences of your actions. Each one of us has been given the ability to think our actions through.

We don’t need anyone to tell us what to do.. We are free to follow our own path. There are those who will take that freedom from us, and too many of you gladly give it. But it is our ability to choose – whatever you think is true – that makes us human. There is no book or teacher to give to the answers, to show you the path. Choose your own way. Do not follow me. Or anyone else.

Amen to that. Brothers and Sisters, listen closely, for it is your life, and not your soul that is in immediate need of salvation. On your deathbed, you shall not remember the Sundays you spent at work, or your highest grades in class; you will remember moments of meaning, and worth, and value. And no one but you can create them. That is the time that is running out.

Live your life. No one else can do it for you. And no one else ever should.

Go in Peace.

To say that nothing is true, is to realize that the foundations of society are fragile, and that we must be the shepherds of our own civilization. To say that everything is permitted, is to understand that we are the architects of our actions, and that we must live with their consequences, whether glorious or tragic.